bRuCmErIt

Endless story

Wed, 08 Apr 2009 02:36:27 GMT

I came to hear of this song recently frm Justin Kuek's facebook.
The first time i hear the song..
I love it..
It touched my heart..
I repeated the song..again & again.
Just as the title suggested.."Endless"
For no other song can replace it..

~Always tsutaetai zutto eien ni..~

~Always..i long to express my love for u for all eternity~ 2:10

I remembered..

Sun, 01 Mar 2009 12:21:34 GMT

When we were nine or ten..
our topics were always about who's digimon is stronger..

When we were fifteen going sixteen..
our topics were always about who's nokia8210 have the highest score for snake.

When we were eighteen..
our topics were always about which club we went yesterday and how many numbers did we take/gvie.

And when we are going to be nearing thirty..
our topics will always be about when are our marriages.

Soon when we are going to be forty..
our topics will always be about comparing our children's results.

And it will go on and on for the nxt decade plus..
we will still be talking about our children's never ending results.

Till we reach the age of sixty..
Our topics will always be about our grandchildren..and their results
& it will go on and on again..

I saw a boy fell down and thought of this..

Sat, 14 Feb 2009 10:55:18 GMT

Remember when we were 5 years old..
when we fell down to the ground..
we cried out loud..
to show our pain and to get attention..

Remember when we were sweet 18..
when we fell down to the ground..
we cursed and swear to ourselves.." nabei cheebye"
to show our "suay-ness" and to feel "paiseh"..

Now that im going to be old age 23..
when i fell to the ground..
i told myself.."this is the bitter life of mine..sighZ"
to show my resignation to fate.

A great start of the year 2009..

Fri, 16 Jan 2009 15:52:50 GMT

to close the chapter of the bad year 2008..

time to write some stuffs after abandoning this space here for nearly half a year. I wanted to do this when the new year comes..but i hafta go for a sailing that lasted me frm new year till today..

And that marks the beginning of a great year..forget abt the economic crisis..so much talk abt it when it doesn't affect me. I have an iron rice bowl for now..

To begin with the great 2009..let's talk abt my iron rice bowl..

I started off the new year by goin on a sailing trip which i will nvr regret..it was an unexpected trip anyway as the team has alr been formed and i happened to grab this opportunity to slot myself in at the last minute. I name this fate.

As a naval diver, we often get deployed to ships for overseas exercise to support them in any form of activity that requires our expertises..

To many, every country that i've visited is considered a free vacation for me..free transport..free lodging..and subsidies meal allowance..I don't deny that fact..but, it also serve as a learning trip for me and that's one good thing abt signing on as a naval diver..which i discovered so far..nothing else.

Through these trips, i've learnt how living conditions are like in different places..the vast difference between developed countries like hawaii and japan to a little developing places like pattaya. The cultural difference between the more barbaric cheenaman and the polite thais and japs.

Feeling of guilt came to me whenever after i succeeded slashing price for my purchases in pattaya..they are alr so poor there..why am i still so cruel to slash a few hundred bahts equilvalent to few singapore dollars for a shirt when im paying $50 for just one "mr happy" shirt frm NUM in singapore. It doesnt make me mr happy when i thought of that..It just doesnt sound right.

Then the people at pattaya..as what pattaya is famously know as..the sex city of asia. It's like almost all the girls there are sex workers..(i can't say all cause i know ah fon is not..haha..)and tourists who go pattaya have only one objective..s.e.x. over the period of 8 days there, seeing what's before my eyes..i really hate and dispise the girls..why must they work as sex workers..bar girls..cant they get a decent job at Macdonalds but to have their bodies earning some dirty money. But then again..on the other side of me..i thought..if there is no demand..how are these supplies being able to sustain in the market. Now, i pity these girls..i witnessed how low their living standards are and probably resorting to such ways of earning money is the way to survive.

I took all these into my heart and i think back..we in singapore always thought of getting rich..earning the 1st million..driving benz..live in condo..get hooked up with all the hot girls/rich guys..whereas people frm other country are trying every desperate ways to earn enough just for the survival of 3 meals and a roof over their families' head..

Chinese New Year is coming..here we are planning how many abalones we are goin to have this yr during reunion dinner but back in pattaya..i walked through supermarkets and cant even find a can of it..able to afford essence of chicken is already a very big thing..and only tourists can afford them..and there we are again..slashing prices when we buy things from them..if not we will be carrot head..

But think..what's more cruel..being called a carrot head or depriving them of that few dollars for survival in this world.

Think. Think. i've gotten my answer.

Hawaii..kawaii..xiao long nu..here i come.

Sun, 27 Jul 2008 23:59:48 GMT

To all the hot babes in hawaii..all the kawaii girls in japan..and all the xiao long nu in shanghai..

it's only 2 more days before the long wait for me..endure girls!

Here I come!! =]

And to all the hottest girls ard..wait for my return in september =]..if possible i will update my happenings here..(oh yea..in case u all wonder where do all the hottest girls come from..Singapore has been voted to have the hottest girls)

And guys..don't be jealous by the above paragraphs..u are not forgotten yet..u all will also be missed..im not called gay for nothing..haha

I will bring back something for u all when i got back..

a different me..

This may well be the last post before i depart for the work trip / holiday trip..whatever u all want to name it.

next move

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 15:30:26 GMT

Everything happens for a reason.
I've been thinking abt it and i have narrowed down to 2 indications which the incident has brought me into.
Is it a sign telling me that it is time to review my path?
Or is it a sign telling me that i have made a wrong move in the past which led to this..

Suddenly, i came to realise that everything that happens are inter-related. They are the cause and effect of another thing that has happened or going to happen.
And i call this relation "fate".
We are fated to experience all these and what we only can do to change whatever that will happen is..choice.
whether we made the right or wrong decision, fate will guide us back by giving us the tell tale signs by the incidents that happen along the way.

Hopefully i can figure out something out of this soon.

Wonderful combination

Sat, 28 Jun 2008 13:01:43 GMT

CONTENTMENT makes a POOR man RICH..

DISCONTENTMENT makes a RICH man POOR.

A combination of both created a man..

A discontentment poor man makes him JJ.

day 91

Mon, 26 May 2008 18:30:21 GMT

Nothing's changed..i mean myself.

But the days don't matter anymore..for the wait comes in vain.

So much for the beautiful words..but what lies beneath that beauty is just a pack of lies..

waiting patiently..day 77

Tue, 13 May 2008 16:22:05 GMT

The theory of the magnet..opposite poles attract.

It isn't true. Unlike pole has nvr sticked together.

Instead, one is always at the north end, and the other at the south bottom..

will nvr meet.

Just like she and i.

waiting patiently..day 61

Sun, 27 Apr 2008 16:30:45 GMT

Totally, it fits..

WHAT HURTS THE MOST

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don�t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I�m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I�m ok
But that�s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin� to do

It�s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I�m doin� It
It�s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I�m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin� with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That�s what I was trying to do