How i wish i can be there right now..
But i know i cant..i have to think of the bigger picture..
Just want her to have an enjoyable week for her birthday.
& not anything else to happen..

Many things i wanna say to her..i wanna hear from her..
but i know she's tired..

Seeing her again really liven up the week despite the bad happenings..

She's just my antidote to anything..

& i thought i can hear her voice..

I wanted so much to talk to someone..
but not just anyone..
I just want to talk to that somebody..
hear from that somebody..
and is nobody else but her..

& yea..i did hear her voice..
but it's from the video clips we took last time..

What a day..

Wanted so much to call and tell her what happened..
But she doesnt seem to be free..
Or should i say..wanted to much to hear her voice..
to at least brighten up my gloomy day..

How i wish..she can just call me the very nxt moment..saying,
"pig..are u alright?"

She's just the antidode to my everything..

Sighz..

It's not that i don't like it

It's not that i didn't want to try it..

It's just that...hmm..

In fact, anything she give..i like it..

& she knows it..

& i thought i will nvr hear from u again..

but it's always so nice to hear from u..definitely lifted my feelings.

I hold the phone closely to my heart..
Everytime it rings..
How i hope ur name appear on the screen..

Then i waited..and waited..

Too bad..the hopes are dashed.

& true enough..i miss that name appearing on the screen..

& this moment..i still miss u.
if u are reading this..
do u feel it..

That question remains in my heart..

waiting since the day i asked..

It's been like so long..
I feel it so..
The feeling's so mixed up..
Makes me so fucked up..
It's always so nice to see her again..
But i just can't hold her again..
Like before..

My hand's so cold..she always said..

And it's colder now..
That's because her warmth is never here again..

Im missing it..badly.

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

Driving me crazy!!!