i wonder if she still reads these..

maybe yes..

maybe no..

Im just too sick to stay in front of the computer recently..

but everytime when i have a problem..i will write something here.

Today i force myself up from the drowsiness effect of the medicince just to write something here.

does anyone know what am i going through nw?

I guess nobody does..

nobody cares.

i tried and tried to act like i don't care..

but i know im lying to everyone..

to myself..

And all i could do is to give her a bon voyage msg..

Gone are the times when i can send her off and bid her good bye..

But then again..how i wish i had nvr said goodbye to her..so we won't have to part..

Life has never been better after all these months of nightmare..

but it's a pity that u ain't here to share the joy i'm having..

and to make it best.

It happened in the interchange..
i was walking back home from the interchange after a tired day.
i walked past a blind man.
i noticed him.
but what i failed to notice is he's walking towards a pillar and gonna bang into it.
and when i noticed it..and wanted to stop him..
it's too late..
It's nothting serious actually..it's juz a light knock into the pillar..
But somehow that scene just hurt me..
and im sad that i couldn't stop him in time..

im also sad that y am i having such feelings..
because i see no point being good..
nobody will ling qing anyway.

But i guess that's just the natural me..
-sigh-

Few days ago..i lost the left footed side of my favourite orange havaianas..and i thought..it is a sign telling me that when something is lost..it can never be found back again.

But today..i found back my favourite orange watch which i lost it months ago..i was very delighted. And at the same time..what's more impt is that it's a sign trying to say that the above statement is not totally true for all is not lost yet..as long as one is determined to find it back.

Everything happens for a reason.

I saw this on my friend's facebook..and i thought it is something to think about..
Here it goes..

my thoughts on friendship : if i don't call u..will u call me?

Have u?

Will u?

I'm really trying very hard to learn..

learning very hard to move on..

I've heard it many times before.. and each time i see a msn chat window/sms alert/call..

i'll secretly pray for it to be u..

but somehow u have seemed to vanish into thin air.. 

xin sheng..